The past several years have seen me on a self destructive spiral that was magnified by a bad breakup and then my company folding.
I delt with this by drinking...a lot! After the breakup I was in a bar sun-thurs nights, often sleeping in my car because I was too drunk to drive.
That went on for about a year then I met a wonderful woman, Elizabeth in Sept 08. Unfortunatley I not only continued to drink several times a week (and I mean drinking to the point of drunk!). When Im drunk I would be easily set off towards her, something that I had never done to anyone else.
Well in Jan 09 my company folded. That hit me harder than I thought. So I spent the next 5 months drinking at home, usually by myself. This of course has pretty much wrecked my relationship.
I've driven myself to the bottom, so now Im ready to pick myself up. And I need to!
Most of my life I've been thin. There was a year when I put on some weight and ate too much fast food. But when I decided to change, I lost 50lbs in 4 months. 10lbs/mo the first 3 months by just changing my eating habits (esp no fast food). and dropped the remaining 20lbs in a single month when I started swimming every day.
I lost so much wieght so fast that my friends and family were convinced I was not eating, or taking diet pills.
So there's a bit of history. Though I do not plan to share this blog with my friends till after the 3 month program.
Im using the 'Body For Life' program. I normally would not have been open to using a book. But Elizabeth had an ex that did it and it worked.
I will upload weekly pictures and record my progress/thoughts on a regular basis.
